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There is a reason I haven't been talking about the things you are all probably hearing about. It's a difficult situation all around, and I do much less of the dirty-laundry airing these days. If you are hearing about the situation, and have formed (and expressed) an opinion based on only one side of the story, you should know that such things can be, and have been, used as ammunition to hurt people you know. If you care about me, Nic, and/or Frank, please reserve judgment on us at least until you give us a chance to talk with you about it. I can't be sure who you are, but I want the chance to defend myself. If you are my friend, you'll give me that chance.
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I know that I have very different music tastes than most of my friends. I also know that I often get very passionate about music, and I don't usually feel I can share that with most of the people around me. This album is the serious exception. I'm not sure what genre it would be most fittingly labelled, but it definitly qualifies as an opera. It follows a single path, from beginning to end, and tells a beautiful story about loss, healing and love. A&A was put together by the lead singer of Blink-182, and it is at once reminicent of Blink and a more ethereal version of thier music. Tom DeLonge has a very distinctive and unusual voice. Some people really can't take it. He tends to a very monotone delivery. I sometimes feel this is a shortcoming, but on this album the soaring melodies and passionate lyrics overcome it for me. I have not been touched and moved like this by an album as a whole for a very long time. Track one, Valkyrie Missle, sets the tone for the whole experience. If only you'll hold on, just hold on
I'm here and I'm with you
I'm here too, I feel you
We'll get through
I know this I've seen it
A hundred times a thousand times
Just one more time
With you and I, I'll pull you close
And then we'll say goodbye
Track five, The Adventure, is still my favorite. Some of you might recognize it as my ringtone (which I might be changing soon, it's been months) my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine. Track seven, A Little's Enough, has this to say: I'm sorry I have to say it but you look like you're sad
Your smile is gone; I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in just a little more love
I promise you this, a little's enough It makes me think of a certain lovely woman that's going through a very hard time in her relationship right now. I want to write those words on her heart and pray to the Goddess that they comfort her. Jesus, I'm a cheesy fucking goon. I could go on about every track, I think. If anyone wants a copy (and doesn't mind that I'm a fucking pirate, arr) I'd be happy to make you one. This album is worth the price to buy though, and I might actually do so in the near future.
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Nicole and I continue to find new things to explore together, and have yet to find anything too big for us to tackle together. March 27th makes a year for us, and I am continually surprised by the ability that we have to love and care for one another. There's all kinds of things that are normal for me at this point in a relationship... bad, I-can-see-the-end-coming kind of things that I don't even see a hint of yet in us. There is still a sky full of worlds for us to explore together. I have yet to be bored, or smothered, or fearful, or annoyed with us or with her. I don't want to run, or cheat, or lie, or hide. Hell, I don't even want to be away from her for a moment, ever...and that's new for me. Usually I need time away from my partner. I *get* time away from Nicole... but I have yet to really *want* it. I can't get over how beautiful, how cute, how loving she is. Sometimes, when I look at her, I can see what she'll look like in twenty years, when the little creases next to her lips will have deepened into laugh lines, when the little folds around her eyes will assert themselves... and all I can think of is how wonderful it will be to see it happen. I think it's probably a combination of the facts that I have learned alot about myself and how I want to live and love in the past few years, her and I grew alot together over the year before this round for us, and we just seem to be very well matched that have contributed to this awesome and awe inspiring love we've grown together. I can't wait to see where it takes us. I love this woman. Tags: nic, public
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It's been two years since I broke up with Tony the first time. Last year, we agreed to try again. And here I am once more, having had to walk away from him. I both hate myself, and am proud of myself for doing it. Where we left things: We've been together too long, and intertwined our lives too thoroughly to be able to just forget about each other. We cannot afford to avoid or ignore each other. I love him, I respect him, and I want him to be happy. I don't hate him, I'm not even angry at him. We are two people that have done every thing we could to try and make it. We were perfect for each other for a long time, but I have felt for a while that we aren't anymore. We bailed the water out of our sinking boat for a long time. It's time for us to take our lives in different directions. We aren't going to be able to separate everything, especially right away. From our friends, to our pets, to our posessions... we have a lot to work through together, and I hope that we can get some healing out of the process. He released me from my collar to him, any agreements we made as a couple are null and void. He will no longer be a factor in my sexual health. I won't say we'll never have sex again, but he is not an exception to my fluid policy anymore. We are no longer responsible for each others' actions or decisions, nor will we be subject to the benefits or consequences of such involuntarily. I have a few venues for companionship and comfort through this difficult time, and I hope he finds the same. I know there are some relationships he's had his eye on for a while, and I wish him nothing but the best luck possible in any attempt he makes with anyone he feels fit to. I give my blessing to anything that helps him get to the other side of this. Thank you to everyone that has listened to me vent my mind and heart. And that's all I have to say right now. Side Note: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tonys_kyrie has been backed up and deleted.
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